So Bitter Sweet

Not pumping anymore at work...just nursing at night. Didn't think I would be sort of sad about it, I miss the demands of it all. No being late to work because I'm sneaking in a pump session in the car with the kids in the morning before I drop them off, no working in Johns office on my laptop hidden away while I pump at work, no sitting on a side street near Ludim's to finish an afternoon pump session, no big baggy t-shirts hiding my pump while I work around the house. I'm not sure what I will do with all this free time!!  I do know that I'm not sure I'll ever let Emily sleep thru the night...I love our night time rendezvous, the time I get my precious baby girl all to myself in the quiet of the night. Nursing her while my fingers run over her soft arms, hands, legs, and cheeks. I cherish these moments.